Things I Wish I Could Say Out Loud

I was watching TLC tonight (shocking...) and came across the show "Four Weddings".  These people attend each other's weddings and vote on the winner.  Whatever.  The part that touched me was the personal vows that these couples had written for each other.  Now, for those of you that were married in a place similar to the one I was married in, you understand when I say...I wish that was part of the ceremony.  I wish I had the guts to say those special words in front of everyone...or even just to Tim. 

I've never been the gushy type, I grew up in a family of boys, for heaven's sake.  I don't really have a way with words.  And... when I feel uncomfortable, I make everything funny.

So, for the record....here's what I wish I had said 12 years ago.

Tim,

I never understood love until I met you.  You swept me off my feet the first time I laid eyes on you. I will do my best to be your rockstar wife.  I will stand by you through thick, thin, good, bad, pretty, ugly, funny and sad.  I will support you in everything you do...or at least, I will do my best to.  I will give you everything I have, everything that I am and everything that I ever will be.  While I may not always be the wife you deserve, rest assured and know that you are perfect for me.  You are my knight in shining armor, the milk to my cookie and most importantly, the man I want to spend eternity with.  I know that things won't turn out the way we planned or even the way we wanted or imagined and I'm sorry, but I do know that we'll make it through as long as we have each other. You are the man I was meant to love and I love you to the moon and back.

 

There.  Too much gushy.  Just like the mud I lost my shoe in while I was fishing with my superhero yesterday.  But every word is true.  Every.  Single.  Word.  And honestly?  If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing.  Not one moment.  Sure, I often think that I might do things differently, but if I did, we wouldn't be who we are today.

Sheesh.

That's enough of that.

So. Much. Gushy.

Never Grow Up...

Saw my nephew tonight.  I have MISSED his little face.  And I thought about this song...
I'm normally not a girl that adores Taylor Swift...but this seemed appropriate...
Even if I can never say these words to their faces...I will always want them to know that this is how I feel.  I would do anything for them.  Any time.
And I want them to stay little forever so that I can always protect them.
Enjoy.