I really mean that.
Not in the sense that I don't see colors...but more in this sense.
I have been struggling with my sense of black and white, right and wrong, good and bad.
I wish I could be empathetic and see the gray area that everyone always talks about, but to me, there is no gray.
Yup, no gray at all.
You're either right or you're wrong.
That's all there is to it.
Also, as much as I keep trying, I can't find it in myself to accept wrong behavior.
I don't always necessarily take steps to improve it or stop it, but I certainly don't accept it.
Does that make me an awful person?
I think it does.
I am forgiving.
I am understanding.
I accept that you are a child of God, just like me.
I accept that things maybe haven't been easy for you.
I accept that maybe, just maybe, your actions, mannerisms and choices are because you were shown a bad example.
But, I do NOT accept your poor manners, bad choices, and your disrespectful and wrong actions and/or words.
I happen to have a nasty temper and a very short fuse.
I have tried to take steps to calm that temper and be more patient.
If I can work on my nasty habits, maybe you can too?
The problem here is most certainly me and I am more than willing to take action when my flaws are pointed out to correct them.
I just can't find it in me to help others see that they're being jacka$$es. (pardon the language-yet another flaw!)
I am trying quite hard to not judge and not be unkind, but darn it! Why can't people just be nice? And moral? And good? It's not so hard!
As my mother has so kindly taught me, it really is okay to just be good.
It's not always the popular choice. You don't always get recognition. You are often overlooked and ignored and feel that you're unimportant. But you're not.
You're just good.
And that's okay.
Phew. I feel better now.
Thanks for listening.
Now, go and be good.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Because I am trying to be a more informed voter and American citizen, I watched the VP debate tonight.
First and foremost, I am disappointed in the mannerisms of our current VP.
Second, I am incredibly tired of the media biases-on either side.
Third, I am now finding myself in my own personal battle of good and evil.
Much to my dismay, I am finding myself incredibly conflicted.
Let me begin by saying that I firmly believe that abortion is murder. Plain and simple. No one has the right to take a life. Ever. I even struggle with the circumstantial abortion.
However, I don't feel that it is the government's place to tell me what I can or cannot do with my body. It's mine and I will do as I feel is best for me and for my life and for my family. Plain and simple - that's none of your dadgum business.
As a woman with my particular trial in life, I get angry when people kill babies for no good reason. Adoption is expensive. If you don't want your baby, please....I will gladly take him/her and love them with every fiber of my being.
Also,what if your mother had aborted you? Every soul has a divine purpose in life that no one else can fulfill. How are we damaging the world, the future generations? What are we missing out on because you don't want your baby?
But again, I don't want to be told that I have to take birth control, that I have to only have one child, that I have to etc, etc, etc by a government that doesn't know me and my life. I believe that the concept of a government controlling my choices about my body is wrong. How would you feel if the government required every woman to have her significant other's name tattooed on her arm or that required every person to wear a hat on Thursdays? It may sound ridiculous, but I feel that if we give the government an inch, they'll take a mile and regulate not only women's health, but also her weight, her makeup, her cold medicine, etc. And that too, is wrong.
I guess it's just going to wind up being a matter of personal choice.
But, I do have to say that I am grateful for all the mothers that I know that didn't abort their child. Each of your children have a special place in my heart. Even the mischievous ones. I thank God everyday for the children that I work with and can't imagine my life without even one of them.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
I've always wanted to make this list...I'm not saying you have to take my advice, but this is my list of classic movies that everyone must watch.
1. An Affair to Remember- Cary Grant and Deborah Kerr
2. Breakfast at Tiffany's- Audrey Hepburn
3. Penny Serenade- Cary Grant (have a huge box of tissues...)
4. Kings Go Forth- Frank Sinatra
5. An American in Paris - Gene Kelly
6. Singin in the Rain- Gene Kelly and Debbie Reynolds
7. Charade- Audrey Hepburn, Cary Grant and Walter Matthau
8. The Bells of St. Mary's - Bing Crosby
9. Here Comes the Groom - Bing Crosby
10. Going My Way- Bing Crosby
11. Casablanca- Humphrey Bogart
12. Sabrina- Audrey Hepburn, Humphrey Bogart
13. The Proud and the Profane- Deborah Kerr and William Holden
14. Arsenic and Old Lace- Cary Grant (be warned..this one is a touch strange...)
15. Operation Petticoat- Cary Grant, Tony Stewart
16. How to Steal a Million- Audrey Hepburn
17. True Grit- John Wayne
18. Two Mules for Sister Sarah- Clint Eastwood
19. Anchors Aweigh- Gene Kelly, Frank Sinatra, Katherine Grayson
20. Gone with the Wind- Clark Gable and Vivien Leigh
Now that I'm looking, maybe I should have just made an Audrey Hepburn list...
Maybe next time.
Next time-it's Must Watch Musicals!