Sunday, my sweet friend Suzanne taught a lesson in primary about following the example of Jesus Christ. She referenced a scripture found in Luke 15:4 - 6.
4: What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost until he find it?
5: And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.
6: And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbors saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.
I'm not going to lie. I felt awful. And it's been on my mind for days. I'm the primary president. I'm supposed to be the shepherd that sets the example and the standard for primary kids to follow. I need to work harder. But how? And how can I ever find the courage to do it? How can I be inspired enough to overcome my fear?
So, tonight, I taught piano lessons...and after my student left, I decided to sit and play for a while. And while I was playing, I came across two songs that pierced my heart. I wish I could explain the way I felt. I wish you could feel it too. I wish I didn't have to work because the fire has been lit. I'm there. I want to spend my days searching and finding and protecting my sheep. Have a listen and hopefully, you understand what I'm about to say.
My Savior loves me enough that I know that He would come find me and I know that He expects me to love my sheep enough to go find them. How can I not? He would do it for me. And because I want to be like Him, I will find them. I will go, I will do, I will search and I won't quit searching until I find them.
I've also been thinking about how it must feel to be the "found sheep". I know through personal experiences that it is a life changing experience. To know that someone thinks enough of you and loves you enough to put in that effort to bring you back to the proverbial fold can change your world. So, let us not find sheep because we're told to. Let's not make this something to check off on our celestial to do list. Let's do it because we love our Savior. Let's do it because we realize that "the worth of souls is great". Let's find them because we would each want someone to find us.
And to leave you with some inspiration...here is a quote from Prophet Thomas S Monson's most recent Priesthood Session talk, True Shepherds. (found here)
"The work will never be concluded until our Lord and Master says, “It is enough.” There are lives to brighten. There are hearts to touch. There are souls to save. Ours is the sacred privilege to brighten, to touch, and to save those precious souls entrusted to our care. We should do so faithfully and with hearts filled with gladness."